There are days when it’s so shitty that you feel so low and depressed, where nothing seems to be going right. One of my colleague, Amanda, whom I’m very closed to is leaving the company and today’s her last day. I was already a bit sad that she’s leaving but it’s for a bigger company. Therefore, it is good for her career and I’m glad she took the offer up.
Secondly, I didn’t get the house I was applying for. In case you didn’t know, I’m planning to move out from my current house to somewhere else, not sure where but I’m still looking. It’s really disappointing that I didn’t get that particular house as both Tian and I really like it. I guess sometimes when we have too much hope and when things just didn’t turn up the way we wanted, it really brings you down. So now it’s back to square one.
Thirdly, there’s this associate contractor in my office that I absolutely disklike 100%!! Actually, nobody in the office likes him. He’s just really really annoying and irritating. I know I’m being really mean saying something like that but I just can’t help it as he gets on my nerves all the time.
At times like this, when so many things goes wrong, I wish I’m back at my parents house in Malaysia. If I’m leaving with them, I don’t have to pay rent and utilities bills, I don’t have to cook everyday after work, I don’t have to do the laundry, I don’t have to clean the house, I basically don’t have to worry about anything at all!! All I need to do is just go to work and come home, eat my dinner, wash the dishes, spend some time with my family, go to bed, and the routine starts all over again.
But I’m not in Malaysia. I’m in Australia where I’m all alone. Totally independent, or should I say nobody else to depend on. I have to work so that I can earn enough money to pay my rent, my mobile phone bill, electrical bill, water bill, land line bill, internet bill, weekly groceries, petrol for my car, and the list just goes on and on. Everyday I’m thinking if I have enough money to pay for all these shits. Sometimes, what I earn is just enough for me to survive. I wonder how am I gonna save money so that I can buy my own house in the future?? Aargh!! How I wish money goes on trees!!
So those of you who are still living with your parents, you are so fortunate. Therefore, don’t complain if they ask you to clean the house or other things. Try living on your own. It’s not easy at all. Now I come to think about it, I really appreciate the times when I was still back in Malaysia. If only they’re here with me now. Sigh…
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aiya u marrying tian…. hehehehe :right:
Big hugs to you.
Hope you are feeling better now.
Eh, what does it has to do with marrying Tian?
Hmm, sometimes the world does turn its back to you. This is the time when you need to show to others that you’re a strong woman no matter what happens to you.
This happens to me too. When I face life difficulties, I will keep cool and come and face them happiliy, or at least, optimistically. :blush:
However, I find it very hard to fake feelings in my heart. Everytime I feel down I smile, joke and laugh but then it doesn’t help to make me feel better. People says that I am fun-loving (Ms Koe & Mr Chew), but then this is the way I hide my emotions.:upsidedown:
I am great that you can express your feelings. some people just doesn’t want to express themsleves by all means. :frown:
You’re a great person, and I am glad that yo can face life difficulties. don’t worry too much, okay?
That’s the way of life. My parents tell me that when they’re young they can’t even afford to buy an apartment lot, so what they do is rent a room in KL, and they’ve stayed in the same rrom for almsot a decade (to be exact, 9 years). Thats why I am born so late, coz they cannot afford to buy a house that can accomodate their children.
Good luck, take care Michelle!
hey gal… so sorry to hear bout all these bad news…. eventhough bad things happen, u’ve always got tian, ur babies, parents and me by urside. sometimes life doesn’t sail smoothly.. what counts is how u stand up and try again and make the best of everything. ur parents also might not have had a smooth beginning but through every suffering it produces perseverance, through perseverance; character and through character, hope.
Keep looking, you will eventually find something that can replace the “house” you wanted.
Hey Michelle, be strong and keep looking, you didn’t get this house because probably God wants you to get a better one but you have got to keep looking. I know your feeling about staying with your parents. My eldest daughter who has come back from USA one year ago is still staying with us. She and her BF are earning good salaries but they feel so comfortable here because they have no bills to pay. I have secretly wish that they move out and start to run their lives on their own and like you, got to weather through some storms sometimes. Cheer up girl, this is a small part of life!!
*hugz*